I don’t want to do that, so I need to get control of my emotions and find better ways to release them. I was so ashamed to be standing naked before the two men. Sex Mostly I wrote it for myself so you’ll have to let me know if you want to read more. He put his body fluids deep inside me against my will. I thought I’d be sick, but it only got worse when at a later time he got that on more then my hand. My mother told me that even before I could say whole words I seemed to be drawn to men. It is hard for me to describe for you the awkward and humiliating feeling of being made to get naked in a public men’s bathroom and standing barefooted on the nasty floor feeling the grime and dirt and stickiness of the floor on my bare feet. But I didn’t care. While it didn’t hurt like so many times had with Don when we were first having sex it felt more dirty then anything to that point. It was just so hard for me mentally to put my mouth on the part of his body I had seen pee and cum.
